Yup. I did it again. I forgot to blog.
There is nothing to report. No BFP. Boo.
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Friday, October 14, 2011
A nice morning chat
Every morning on my way to work I call my older sister. We have been doing this for years. Today was kind of different. We usually talk about all the drama that is going on with our family, by family I mean my other sisters and brother. Like I said in my previous post, I don't really talk to people about my "situation", I don't even tell them that I read your blogs. They just don't get it.
Anyways, today mentioned that I read a blog about a couple who have been dealing with IF for years, they tried IUI, IVF and of course on their own for years before they decided to stop and go to adoption instead. Well to make story short, she just found out she is expecting!
She told me that she has heard a lot of stories where that sort of thing happens (I saw it on SATC).
She also said the 2 most famous words that we just love to her..."Just Relax". I didn't lose it then, but I did tell her its better easy said then done.
I tried to explain to her that its really hard to "just relax" every cycle is a roller coaster for us. Every month we desire to get the BFP so our hopes go up and then we get that BFN instead and down we go...
My sister was very understanding and it felt good to let her know how I felt.
OK well enough rambling for today.
Have a great day!
-Brenda
Anyways, today mentioned that I read a blog about a couple who have been dealing with IF for years, they tried IUI, IVF and of course on their own for years before they decided to stop and go to adoption instead. Well to make story short, she just found out she is expecting!
She told me that she has heard a lot of stories where that sort of thing happens (I saw it on SATC).
She also said the 2 most famous words that we just love to her..."Just Relax". I didn't lose it then, but I did tell her its better easy said then done.
I tried to explain to her that its really hard to "just relax" every cycle is a roller coaster for us. Every month we desire to get the BFP so our hopes go up and then we get that BFN instead and down we go...
My sister was very understanding and it felt good to let her know how I felt.
OK well enough rambling for today.
Have a great day!
-Brenda
Thursday, October 13, 2011
I am so bad at this...sorry
I guess that title says it all.
Sorry.
I just feel so discouraged when nothing happens. We are still on TTC mode and it seems like every month you wait for AF to show up, of course you secretly wish it doesn't so that you can at least hope that you have a chance at getting a BFP. Unfortunately, in some cases, AF doesn't show up but you still don't get your much desired +.
Since my surgery on June 10, 2011, I have had one "normal" cycle, and that was last month. This month, I didn't get AF, but I have been spotting. I don't know what is going on. I have an appt next week on Tuesday. We will see what happens then.
On other news, this past Tuesday my son wanted to go to the library for a reading book. Once we got there I decided to go in search of some IF or TCC books and because I didnt do my research before we went and our library doenst have a computer system where we can search books based on topics, I had to get courage and walk up to the information desk. My sisters and close family members are the only people that know of our struggle. Never have I once had to interact with a stranger with my "issue". I was nervous/embarrassed. I didnt know what to say or ask. I felt like I was going to be judged. I dont know. I am fairly new to this and still dont know how to deal with it.
As for blogging, I will try to get better. I read A LOT of blogs, but I just don't comment/ or even update my blog, I will work on that.
Til then,
Have a good weekend!
-Brenda
Sorry.
I just feel so discouraged when nothing happens. We are still on TTC mode and it seems like every month you wait for AF to show up, of course you secretly wish it doesn't so that you can at least hope that you have a chance at getting a BFP. Unfortunately, in some cases, AF doesn't show up but you still don't get your much desired +.
Since my surgery on June 10, 2011, I have had one "normal" cycle, and that was last month. This month, I didn't get AF, but I have been spotting. I don't know what is going on. I have an appt next week on Tuesday. We will see what happens then.
On other news, this past Tuesday my son wanted to go to the library for a reading book. Once we got there I decided to go in search of some IF or TCC books and because I didnt do my research before we went and our library doenst have a computer system where we can search books based on topics, I had to get courage and walk up to the information desk. My sisters and close family members are the only people that know of our struggle. Never have I once had to interact with a stranger with my "issue". I was nervous/embarrassed. I didnt know what to say or ask. I felt like I was going to be judged. I dont know. I am fairly new to this and still dont know how to deal with it.
As for blogging, I will try to get better. I read A LOT of blogs, but I just don't comment/ or even update my blog, I will work on that.
Til then,
Have a good weekend!
-Brenda
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Long time reader, first time blogger
Welcome to my blog.
This is my very first attempt at blogging, so please be patient.
I am a Southern California girl, mother of a handsome 8 year old boy and married to a wonderful man.
My husband and I got married young, and after our son was born we decided to wait until we were more mature and financially ready to expand our family. I used all type of birth control to avoid another pregnancy again at such a young age ( I had just turned 18 years old when my son was born).
Forward some 6 years later, my husband and I start getting baby fever. Everyone around us is having babies. at this point I had been off birth control for about a year, but my period was not "normal" at this point. I remember my last normal period was in April 2005, but I thought it was just the side effects from the BC.
Now to the present, I had surgery about a month ago to remove a cyst from my left ovary and at the same point I had a D&C also because I had a period that lasted from December 2010 to April 2011 and I became anemic as a result...more on that later.
Ok I guess this is enough for my first blog.
xoxo
Brenda
This is my very first attempt at blogging, so please be patient.
I am a Southern California girl, mother of a handsome 8 year old boy and married to a wonderful man.
My husband and I got married young, and after our son was born we decided to wait until we were more mature and financially ready to expand our family. I used all type of birth control to avoid another pregnancy again at such a young age ( I had just turned 18 years old when my son was born).
Forward some 6 years later, my husband and I start getting baby fever. Everyone around us is having babies. at this point I had been off birth control for about a year, but my period was not "normal" at this point. I remember my last normal period was in April 2005, but I thought it was just the side effects from the BC.
Now to the present, I had surgery about a month ago to remove a cyst from my left ovary and at the same point I had a D&C also because I had a period that lasted from December 2010 to April 2011 and I became anemic as a result...more on that later.
Ok I guess this is enough for my first blog.
xoxo
Brenda
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